Don't know if i miss read or jumped to conclusion but here is my reaction if so not only to you but to many:

i loved you i loved you alot, i cared for you when you hated me and continue to care for you still, it broke my heart when we stopped being friends.

And I am still the same person, you and many are not in the stance to say I've changed or how I've changed because you are not here, you are not standing beside me, you do not know me nor try to, you do not love me...so please refrain for saying Im different

I am the same person but I did something I shouldve done long ago, I stopped letting certain things happen, I stopped leaving an open door for people to hurt me I didnt stop forgiving I didnt stop loving...I just realized I have to stop letting people walk all over me and I did just that, and you most likely were one of the people who told me I had to stop it..

and I still do. I still read your journal, I still miss you but I try not to. Christian said "jess forgiving people doesnt mean you have to hang out and talk to them, thats where you always mess up" or something along those lines..

thats when I called him about what happened with you and I because I didnt understand it because I loved you so much, and I thought you loved me too. And from that day on, I approached situations differently and I am happy.

If you doubt who I am, ask them if you must..don't base it off of second increments we are around each other and rumors, if you must try to get to know me again(i dont know if i could handle it) or ask those who stuck around..

To those of you who love me, who are my friends or are becoming: thank you for knowing and loving me.